This is my oldest son, Brother Bear. He is 22 now.
This is when he was a baby. His first birthday. How sweet. Still as cute as ever!

I have had him on my mind a lot this weekend. I got to talk to him for a breif minute this morning after talking to my mother. He had just gotten up so I didn't talk for long. I just wanted to tell a little bit about Brother Bear. He is sort of a loner. He is very quiet and right now a bit of a rebel. He is out doing his own thing and we hardly ever see him anymore.... which breaks my heart.... I wish he lived close and I could see him more. But I know I have to let him go and do for himself and learn from his mistakes on his own.
Brother Bear is very talented. He can draw very well among other things. I have some pictures that he drew for me over the years hanging on my walls and other things that he has made for me. He was such a sweet boy growing up. We used to take long walks together every day down the railroad tracks and talk... that is when he loved to talk the most, besides when we were riding in the car. He still talks a lot when it is just the two of us in the car. He was very active growing up and I had him at a young age of 19 so I guess you could say we grew up together.

He loves doing tattoos these days. We got him a tattoo gun for Christmas a couple of years ago and he does that a lot. He really enjoys it. He draws them himself. He even gave Papa Bear one for Christmas, this was his first one. Papa Bear says that it is a gift he will never forget from his son. He says he wants to go to barber school and be a barber and do tattoos on the side. I am not very crazy about tattoos but I have to say if this is what he wants... then I say go for it. At least he is thinking of doing something with his life.

Someday soon we are hoping he will settle down with a family and we will get to see him more. Right now we just take what we can. I find myself everyday throughout the day saying little prayers for him and at night. I worry about him so much and wonder what he is doing.

Well, I just want to say to him.. I love you very much and miss you.